I try to keep a smile on my face... while inside I'm hurting.... confused... and tired. I need God to hold me closer than He ever has right now. I need to stay focused on HIM! Trust Him... keep my faith in Him... know He is there... know that He is tending to all my needs.. even though I cant see it or feel it.
I miss my daddy!!!!!!!! So much!!!!! Father's Day of 2005 Daddy went to walk the golden streets of Heaven. I miss him everyday... but the closer it gets to Father's Day every year... the more I miss him... and the harder it is to contain my grief.
I half think thats what is keeping me from working on my mom's 'ghan. I think of her... how alone she is ... and then think of my daddy and how I miss him. Crazy huh?!
December of 2005 my now 9yr old was diagnosed with Nephrotic Syndrome. What a kick in the pants huh! Dealing with my first Christmas without my daddy ... then to have my baby sick. *sheeeeeesh* Well... Michael is walking a thin line of being in a relapse right now. I asked for prayer like crazy for him.... and I believe its working. His protein levels were 300++ the day before yesterday... and are now at 100++ So being this is grand news.... Praise God!!!! Why can I not pull out of the sadness I'm dealing with ... with the levels being up.
I dont like being weak. I dont like how Satan can pull me in so darn easy! I'm normally a strong woman... I'm the forgiving one... the sympathetic one... the optimistic one... I'm a child of God!!!
Wow.... this has turned into one heck of a blog beginning.... I'm so sorry!
For any of the ladies from Crochetville that may read this................... GOD Bless you... and please forgive me for not tending to my mom's comfortghan that so many of you were so gracious to send squares for! I will get it done... I will give it to my mommy... I will! I just need to pull my emotions away from satan and get back to focusing on God.
Okay............... let me do some sharing.... I need to show and share!!! I need to be reminded that I am accomplishing things.
This is a Tunisian Scarflet/Pidge I started last night while watching the boys at baseball practice. The pattern was given by a lovely lady on Crochetville here
I didnt have the pattern at my hand... but did remember the stitch she said she used and approx how big it was.... so I decided to wing it. I decided that my Chophook would be the perfect hook to use for this project. I LOVE THAT HOOK!
This is a Flower Pen I made last night before I started the Scarflet. Yup... another talented lady from Crochetville inspired this one. here and here Again.. didnt have her pattern in front of me... but had the basic idea still in my head... so..... this is my little version. Look okay? Like a flower?
Now this.... this is a beautiful gift from a beautifully talented lady! This is a bag/purse made on a knitting loom. It was part of a Looming Swap. She added some lovely gifts... candy being one.... :) my mouth loves her... but my hips will be angry. There are two sweet little balls of yarn (Jojoland Bloom) orchid in color... and a loom hook. I was so excited and so blessed when this packaged arrived! THANK YOU Spring.... I love it!!
Well... I need to tend to laundry... tend to my boys ... and tend to my crocheting.
You all have a wonderful afternoon and evening!!!
Huge Hugs... Lots of Love and Blessings beyond your wants or needs!!!!
.::Tam::.
**...for the Lord is your security. He will keep your foot from being caught in a trap.
~ Proverbs 3:26**
2 comments:
hang in there hun... God is always in control. I just got some bad news myself yesterday. We just have to give it to Him. Sometimes there's nothing else we can do.
love the projects! They are so pretty. I hope you get to feeling more like yourself soon. ((hugs))
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