~*~ 2019 ~*~

God Bless

Merry Christmas...................

Looks like Santa showed up for David and Michael! 

❤️🎄 Molly wanted to see Dad's Christmas blanket!🐾
Merry Christmas sweetheart 💕

❤️🎄 Of course Molly had to check out Grandpa's Christmas blanket! 🐾
Merry Christmas Daddy 💕

God Bless you all....

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`·.,(¯`·´¯)..........★。＼｜／。★
(¯`·´¯).·´(¯`·´¯)...♥ Happy New Year ♥
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Miss you Ken............💔

People say that the first year is the worst... It gets better with time... You'll move on... And I want to just scream at them until I have no voice left. Every year will be the worst. No it doesn't get better with time. It just becomes different in how I have to deal with things. And who the heck are they to tell me that I will move on... So what if I never do!
You were the absolute love of my life. The only person I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. I still feel robbed... I still question why... I still wonder how this plays into "God's plan" for me and our children. How could this be a part of any plan? Taking you from me and our kids... REALLY? I'm still trying to come to terms with that. I know I never will, but I wish I could understand.
I know they mean well, but it's not what I need or want to hear. To be honest, I'd rather they say nothing. I'd rather they just let me vent... Just let me get my feelings out and then move on. Maybe that's part of the reason why I keep my feelings to myself... why I don't let them see me cry... why I smile on the outside and die on the inside... why I bury myself in work and activities and want to run. Because deep down, I want to hide from it all. I want to be numb. I don't want to feel the pain and emptiness. I want to stop pretending... stop people from thinking I'm strong... because I'm not. I'm just dealing with a messed up situation the only way I know how to... in the only way that makes sense to me. By pushing it all aside and letting all the emotion bottle up inside me until I finally have to let some of it out to relieve the pressure... not all of it but some.
I don't know why I do it. Maybe it's because I'm scared. Scared of what my life will be now. Scared that I won't find another person that feels for me even half of what you felt. Scared that I will fail you and our children.
The one thing I do know is if I were ever given the chance to do it all again, I would. Even with knowing the outcome, I wouldn't change one thing. The love you showed me in our years together was enough to last me the rest of my life. And anytime I want to see you, I just close my eyes and there you are with your arms open wide ready to hold me and never let me go. Just like I will never let you go. You will always be with me no matter where life takes me. And just as you loved me until your dying day, so too will I love you until mine.

💔

God Bless

Tammy

The Sweetest Gift

Craig Aven

Family........

 the ones God blesses us with......

2 years ago this sweet young man came into our lives. 
We had a wonderful Christmas dinner,  gift exchange and quality family time of sharing .. laughing and singing! 🎶  I miss you Zach!  
Stay safe... Merry Christmas!

God Bless

Tammy

Missing my love...........

This Song says it.............. :(

Missing you something awful Ken!!!  💔

Tammy

Thankful Thursday.............

☁ ☕ ~ Good Morning all.............


Well the day is gloomy... and on the cool side right now.  We are suppose to see temps around the low 40's today.   No sun.... but that's okay!
Today I'm still very thankful!!!


I'm Thankful ......


> for my Father God who loves me like no one else can or does!
> that there is always a fresh pot of coffee going somewhere!
> that although the day is gloomy... its nice out
> for a lovely little gift I received this morning from one of the Advisors!
> our office collected plenty of money to bless a family of 8 in need this Christmas!
> that I'm getting my Christmas shopping done
> for having just enough money to get Christmas gifts
> for a fresh cup of coffee
> for a gift from Santa under our office tree
> my mom and I were able to go to Nebraska Christian College *Colors of Christmas*  What an awesome time!!
> that I have my radio at my desk playing my favorite Christian stations
> for my footstool under my desk!  The winter weather isn't any fun on my knee
> there is a fresh pot of coffee brewing
> for USPS... UPS & FedEx
> that the changes happing in my and my boys lives will be good for us
> there is a new year just around the corner.  I need a 'do over' on some of this years happenings.
> for my family!!!!


~ Whoever claims to love God yet hates a brother or sister is a liar.  For whoever does not love their  brother and sister, whom they have seen, cannot love God, whom they have not seen. - 1 John 4:20 ~


God Bless
Tammy

Today's Sermon..............

Impact 9 December 2018 ~ Those Near Us and Like Us

God Bless

Tammy

Colors of Christmas 2018

💖☕ ~  Another post of  *Proud Mommy Moment*


Wow... This concert/praise and worship time was awesome!
I love seeing my children being so passionate towards God!

GREAT JOB Worship Arts kids!!!












God Bless

Tammy

Thankful Thursday.......

⛅☕ ~ Good Morning my dear family and friends!!


This month is filled with so many memories (happy & sad)!  So much to do (Christmas gifts to go shopping for, baking, Christmas concerts & Christmas office parties)!   So much to get through (trials of the past that are still in need of settling & trials of the present)!
Now having said all that..............


Today I'm Thankful for.........


= God... my father in heaven who takes care of me!
= coffee... just a blessed beverage
= remembering all the wonderful times with my Ken! <3 p="">= being able to smile through the tears
= my church family praying for me ... especially through the sad times.
= cocoa in my coffee!
= being able to afford the Christmas gifts I've been buying
= baking time with my mom! We have so much fun and the house smells so good.
= the Colors of Christmas concert at NCC.  David did an outstanding job... the concert was awesome!
= such a wonderfully fun night at the company Christmas party!
= french vanilla creamer
= my lawyer who keeps fighting the fight
= my accountant that looks out for me
= my job!  God put me in the right place for being able to tend to finances and family while still working outside the home.
= prayers!!!


~ Be on our guard; stand firm in the faith; be courageous; be strong.  Do everything in love! - 1 Corinthians 16:13-14 ~


God Bless
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Storms of Life .................

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☕ ~ Good (cloudy/snowy) morning ......

Proverbs 10:25 - When the whirlwind passes, the wicked is no more, but the righteous has and everlasting foundation.

Job said that "man is born to trouble as the sparks fly upward". It can seem like there is just no way out of our current situation. Friends, like Job's friends, can give us the litany of possibilities: we have a hidden sin in our lives, we are being punished for the sins of our fathers, we are out of the will of God, we lack faith, and the list goes on and on. A few of these have no basis in scripture, others are so rarely the case, and all of them are condemning and destructive to the one who is suffering. God gave us Job as a perfect reaction to trials and troubles saying "Even if He slays me, yet will I trust Him." Oh how I long for that kind of faith and trust in my every day life, let alone in my day of trouble. But one thing seems very sure. We can and will have times and seasons of tribulation in our lives. "When the whirlwind comes …" It seems to have little to do with the depth or maturity of our faith. It has been said that the Christian Army is the only one that shoots its own wounded. It has the sad ring of truth to it. Let's move ourselves away from this practice and show the love and compassion that Jesus explained would show the world that we are His disciples.

John 16:33 - [Jesus speaking] These things I have spoken to you that in Me, you may have peace. In the world, you will have tribulation, but take courage; I have overcome the world.

There is a simple old chorus "Be still and know that I am God." I have been through things that I would not wish on my worst enemy (of course, I am supposed to love my enemies). Jesus always seems to bring me a special song or verse to help me stay peaceful. Not that I always take advantage, but He has the condition of my heart in mind. If I can stay still and at peace, not struggling without need against a situation, He will lead me through.

When peace like a river attendeth my way, when sorrows like sea billows roll; Whatever my lot, Thou hast taught me to say, "It is well, it is well with my soul.

More and more I see trials as God working in my life. Showing me my old, depraved heart. Teaching me dependence on Him in more and more things. Someday I will, under His teaching and grace, let go of all things and trust Him alone. He has shown Himself to be utterly trustworthy, overcoming the power of the enemy, death, Hell and sin itself. It is only my foolishness that clings to anything else. There is an image that was explained to me once, a while ago now. It is a picture of Jesus as a surgeon and me as the patient. My job is to be still and lay quietly on the operating table, so that He can do the work in me that He knows is needed for my good. What doctor in his right mind would be chasing a patient down the hall with his scalpel shouting "Hold still!" What an absurd picture indeed. The same wise soul explained to me that more saints are born in the valleys than are from the mountain tops. The peace and savor of a mountain top experience with God is something I hope we all cherish. They are times of rest and refreshing we all need. But, in the crucible of adversity, we learn more about ourselves and how much Jesus Christ really cares for us. When we can finally not go on in our own strength, He picks us up and carries us through. He never leaves us, never berates us, never says "I told you so." (at least not without love), never fails us in all those times. Even though He knows our hearts better than anyone, He accepts us and continues to do the work He promises to complete in us. All this so He can present us to the Father without spot or blemish. We are the joy that was set before Him for which He endured the cross.


Deep in thought & prayer!
God Bless

Tammy

Proud Mommy - Show & Share........

💖☕ ~ What a day!  

Woke up this morning to a lovely snowfall.  Everything was covered.  It was snowing and the winds were blowing.  

Spent the morning shoveling the driveway and cleaning of vehicles!
Finished decorating the Christmas Tree!
Mom made some Lemon Poppy seed muffins and a skillet Apple pie.
I worked in my office for a while.
Finally got a chance to watch Church Service online!  :)

Now …. as for the "proud mommy" moment of today.   My youngest spent the day helping out a good friend that needed a male model for her part in a Christmas show for Capital School of Hairstyling and Esthetics.   The theme he was part of was Apocalypse.  
David's friend did a great job on David and her other model.   And David did a Great job modeling for her.  

This is David  and the female model showing off the Apocalypse style!
Click HERE to see a bit of the video

Stay safe.. Stay warm & stay close to God!
God Bless
Tammy

Happy 1st of December 2018.....

☃
   ☕  Good Morning everyone..............


Hope this day is finding you all well! 
Today is a good day to run a couple errands... and put up the Christmas Tree!
So............. That's exactly what my mom and I did.


I went out and ran a couple errands early... then mom and I went to the grocery store.  After we got home and settled back in for the day ... got some house work done.... had a yummy dinner of leftover meatloaf... We decided to put up our Christmas tree. 
We had so much fun listening to Christmas music... singing and laughing and just having some serious fun... that by the time we got to the garland for the tree... we had really been being silly...
AND.................. this is how the tree turned out.

Of course... we cant just leave well enough alone... so when my son Michael posted a picture of our outstanding decorating skills on his snapchat... I copied it into a group chat with my children.  
Yep... they got a good laugh at their grandma and I.    :)

Have a fun Saturday!

Many Blessings

.::Tam::.