Then after a few errands Ken and I stopped to visit with lovely couple from our church that Ken and I seem to have alot in common with and didn’t even realize it. The men went off to talk computers and stock options... while us girls chatted about our struggles of being the women we want to be. It was a wonderful talk... it was amazing at how much our lives are the same. She struggles with such similar issues. While I kind of felt I did most the talking.... she shared many things with me that helped me feel I wasn’t as crazy as I sometimes feel I am. You know ....... that feeling of you being nuts while the world around you is sane. When in reality ... it’s mostly just the opposite. It sure lifted my spirits.. talking to her!
I then had an evening of Football practices. From one school to another to a ball field to home. *Whew*
So............. Now I sit... re-reading my Aunts email... looking back at my day .... and realizing how much I am blessed with! I have been so consumed in this "issue" in my life.... I haven’t been myself. I keep rehashing things in my head.. trying to make since of it and during my visit today with my friend... while listening to her... I realized to myself.... there aren’t any answers to this issue. There will be no making since of it. The ONLY thing I need to be doing now .. is focusing on praying for the issue... leaving it all in Gods hands and moving forward with my life .. my husband ... children and grandchildren. Thank you God for putting my Aunt in my way today... thank you for her loving me enough to shake me up and bring my focus to where it should be.... Thank you for my visit with my friend... it helped me understand that I'm not alone... not as long as I have you my Father in Heaven and the family and friends you put around me. Thank you for this crazy issue in my life... because although its not something I like having go on in my life... I have been learning from it... trusting you Lord more from it .. .growing closer to my husband from it... and my husband growing closer to you Lord from it.
I've said this so many times before to others and myself... what Satan wants to use for bad... God turns to good! The things Satan is trying to accomplish in my life right now .. are self-doubt.. self-hatred ... division between Ken and I...... and just all around chaos. Well......... from this God is teaching us ... confidence... the decisions I made.. were right! Self Love.... I may make mistakes... but I am .. was and always will be a child of God... God loves me and so do I! Unity between a husband and wife... a bond that is stronger than anything Satan can throw at us. Basic love and faith. Patience and trust!
Isn’t it amazing how easy it is to believe all the bad.. but never the good about ourselves. We're told by others and/or Satan that we are no good.. and we believe this non-sense. But let someone tell us that we are good... that we are worth loving... and we doubt this.
Think about this for a minute... how many times has your husband told you that you looked pretty? Was your reply.............. "Thank you"....... or was it ......... "oh.. yeah... whatever" ???
do you really think your husband is lying? or is it that you don’t love yourself? Do you doubt yourself? Do you forgive yourself when you make mistakes? Have you forgiven yourself from very old past mistakes? Does your past seem to haunt you? This is all what really guides your present and future. If you don’t love yourself... believe in yourself .. and forgive yourself... how do you really expect to love others.. believe in others.. and forgive anyone? YOU CANT. No matter what excuse you have.. bottom line is... you cant love others as you love yourself!
Eight times in the Bible we are told to love our neighbor -- one of the Bible's most repeated commands. Loving your neighbor is the opposite of selfishness -- the common human practice. Acting in divine love demonstrates that unselfishness is possible for a human -- showing a reality that cannot be ignored or denied. Whether they appreciate you, or respond to your love, Jesus' command is still valid: You must show love to your neighbor in a practical way.
So.................. lets try this........... this whole weekend... when given a compliment... simply say "Thank You!" Learn to accept your own love... so that you may love others... which will show them Gods love. All along.. keeping you focused on God.... and not believing the lies of Satan.. which will eventually clean your life of any "issues" you are having!
Well............ before I call it a night... let me share a few things with you.This is a blanket and beanie set I made a dear friend for her newest Grandbaby!
Off to finish up a few things.... then to bed and up early. School for the boys and errands to run for me.
Have a Wonderfully Blessed evening and a Fabulous tomorrow!
lots of love...
**"Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven. ** MATTHEW 5:16